I Dream of Blackness

Just cataloging this crazy dream I had from a nap.
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M’BlockU @rodimusprime

I don't know if I've ever had a more lucid and possibly meaningful dream than I just did in this nap.

28/03/2012 07:01:32 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

I will attempt to chronicle it here before I forget it...

28/03/2012 07:01:58 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

In my dream I was sitting down talking to this dude. It was like an interview. Not a job interview but like a journalist interviews someone.

28/03/2012 07:03:07 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

I could really recognize this slick talking smooth brother but for some reason I did feel angry and annoyed with him.

28/03/2012 07:03:39 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

But I kept asking him questions and he kept saying these answers that kept making fucking sense. And it was infuriating b/c I hated him.

28/03/2012 07:04:03 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

At the same time I couldn't remember any of the questions I was asking. It was like they were filtered out by a blinding rage at this man.

28/03/2012 07:04:34 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

He had an afro, a 70's mustache, he was wearing a dashiki and some sort of African medallion. He kept speaking on blackness.

28/03/2012 07:05:20 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

And I kept thinking "how the hell is this man an expert on being black? why does he think he can speak for me? Speak for us all at that!"

28/03/2012 07:05:52 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

So I finally asked him. I leaned forward and I asked him what I can only imagine was some pointed question about his place in racial issues.

28/03/2012 07:06:49 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

Remember I could hear a single thing I said. But I just had a feeling that I had told him BUT good. Like finally I trapped him w/ logic.

28/03/2012 07:07:23 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

And he just leaned back and took off his darkly tinted reading glasses and said "I speak for you so that you can speak for yourself."

28/03/2012 07:08:06 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

And it was like I had a fucking blackness Nirvana moment. All these black and white images filtered through my brain.

28/03/2012 07:08:32 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

It was like I was talking to the black Kaizer Sose. Because he was RIGHT. In his wake he had created an industry of black voices

28/03/2012 07:09:09 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

And even without those voices knowing it... they owed him. We all owed him. Hell I owed him.

28/03/2012 07:09:24 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

In this dream I saw decades of black people on TV and in print speaking on issues that affected US in a way no other could address.

28/03/2012 07:10:08 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

And this man... this young man who I was talking to he was in many ways the arbiter of this great blackness that we have now.

28/03/2012 07:10:40 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

But he spoke with a great pride and a great hurt. Like being at the center of the ripples of black thought was also a burden.

28/03/2012 07:11:29 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

Because as much as he was responsible for it he was also vilified for taking up this mantle. And I felt such shame.

28/03/2012 07:12:05 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

And I woke up. Literally 7 minutes ago. I had to look at my iPhone because I felt like I was late for work. But it was actually 8 pm.

28/03/2012 07:12:51 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

I woke up from that nap to come down here to write this shit down before I forget...

28/03/2012 07:13:09 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

And seconds before I typed this I looked on my google images search in my iPhone... that man... that charismatic black icon...

28/03/2012 07:13:52 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

WHAT THE FUCK! I don't even fucking have dreams ya'll. And I swear to God I wouldn't make this shit up.

28/03/2012 07:14:27 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

Does Jesse Jackson have some sort of inception machine? I feel like he was RIGHT. Even in our disagreeing with him he has created so MUCH.

28/03/2012 07:15:35 WIB
M’BlockU @rodimusprime

As one of the long voices of black opinion and anger for so long Jesse DID hold a burden. He did get that "Not Martin" hatred from many.

28/03/2012 07:16:17 WIB
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