Joan, Jane, and a Lesson in Being a Little Human

We all have our axes to grind. But let's be decent to each other. None of us can stand alone all the time.
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J @LibertyBelleJ
I'm brutal. No doubt about it. Completely rhetorically brutal at times. BUT. I don't try to break people, or stomp 'em when they're down.
J @LibertyBelleJ
When it comes down to going in for the kill, I won't take advantage of someone else's most vulnerable, soul-shattering moments. I won't.
J @LibertyBelleJ
Because usually, the causes for my ire with someone melt away when they, too, begin to realize that they're not holier than I, also suffer.
@Dreamspeak
@LibertyBelle4 If the breaking is done without ire- with purpose and intent, I find there's opportunity to help rebuild.
J @LibertyBelleJ
@dreamspeak - True. Wanna hear a story? I'm about to tell one that's too light for the blog at the moment.
J @LibertyBelleJ
True story. Throughout 4th-5th-6th grade, I was in pitched battle with a girl we'll call "Jane."
J @LibertyBelleJ
Jane and I both wanted to be the official, eternal "best friend" with another girl, Susanna. Strawberry blonde, cheerleader type, Susanna.
J @LibertyBelleJ
I mocked Jane mercilessly in private, using details gleaned during girl-talk with Susanna about sleepovers.
J @LibertyBelleJ
Jane and I were neck & neck in the "best friend" race. I'd get the sleepover one night, she had it the next time. Grrr...
J @LibertyBelleJ
I even did one very, very bad thing to Jane. Really, truly horrible in 6th grade terms.
J @LibertyBelleJ
Threw a party. Invited every. single. person. in. the. 6th. grade. BUT HER. And distributed the invites AT SCHOOL. *wincing at my pettiness*
J @LibertyBelleJ
She came over and asked, "What's that?" And I said, with blithe cheer and an evil laugh, "Nothing that concerns YOU, dear."
J @LibertyBelleJ
She asked, later, if I'd "forgotten" her invite. I said, "Nope."
J @LibertyBelleJ
And I hated her enough not to feel bad at THAT time.
J @LibertyBelleJ
Plus, I WAS only twelve, ya know.
J @LibertyBelleJ
I told her, in a private moment later, "I know there's ONE night that you will be at home watching TV totally ALONE. Made sure of it."
J @LibertyBelleJ
Nice, huh? That was before I got a handle on how much rage I had over my own home situation. I knew the feeling I was inflicting. KNEW IT.
J @LibertyBelleJ
So, fast forward to EIGHTH grade. The school bus. On the way home after a long day. All the kids I grew up with there, including Jane.
Milt Shook @miltshook
@LibertyBelle4 so what you're saying is, you were a Republican when you were 12. We forgive you. :)
J @LibertyBelleJ
@MiltShook - I suppose so, on some level. My humanity has been a work-in-progress, let's say. ;-)
@BKneon
@LibertyBelle4 "I know there's ONE night that you will be at home watching TV totally ALONE. Made sure of it."<< Whoa
J @LibertyBelleJ
Jane had gotten her period that day. Was wearing white pants. Hadn't prepared adequately, and it was... obvious.
J @LibertyBelleJ
Enter local bully, Tim. Who began mocking her cruelly, taunting her, laughing, inciting other to laugh and call her "Skid Marks."
J @LibertyBelleJ
It still sickens me to think of that moment. Her face.
J @LibertyBelleJ
I STOOD UP on the bus and said, "Shut. Your. Fucking. Mouth. Tim. NOOOOOOW."
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